Here and Now 
The February of 2014
I'd just started living a dream
The pieces of the jigsaw 
Just seemed to fall in place... 
There i was 
Rejuvenated.....55 going on 20! 
And that's bad, she said. 
Such exuberance....difficult to handle 
Kid gloves and...and silences reign 
Conversations....O so tame. 
Conditioned, slotted.....Frameworks in place

The guy in the mirror 
Can't have my shades....
I'm a collector she said 
In all pride and glory No room now for a random epiphany!!! 
Y, Y not, It's just this....Is it not? 
A world of brick and mortar 
Investments to be had and made 
Who for.....i ask 
It's for the Here and Now they say.... 
U never know 
What's there in store 
For life is lived forward 
In a rather backward looking way 
Y's and wherefores 
Aren't flavors of the month. 
What's important is...... 
U gotta punt..... 
Take a call.....on memories and wishframes 
That reside 
In your Here and Now!!!!

No questions...

Me -Sometimes I think that all my attempts at understanding are never gonna yield the answers....(The fact that one doesn't really know what they are/should be, doesn't help either!). Maybe its best not to inquire. Be able then to say, in a manner of speaking, that the only thing I know is that I know nothing. And realise that, this, I am!
Just here and now. No questions...
Arun -Like I said before...There is no answer...
That's the answer
Me -Yup!Kinda funny that "Don't think" was an escapist mantra in college. A lifetime later, it now seems to be the best reality check. Says a lot for altered realities.
Arun -As they say...Life comes a full circle. We reach where we started from, only that we don't value the beginnings.

The brain - mind connect

Me -Is the mind a reflection of the brain's processes... OR.. Is the brain a surrogate of the mind's intentions.
Arun -1. Brain is an anatomical fact. It is matter. Mind is a physiological event, and not, matter.
2. Brain is akin to power supply and mind, is the electricity that flows. Mind is not a surrogate, nor, only in the brain. Each cell in the body has a mind of its own. The brain might act as Big Brother. You can locate the brain, but not the mind. Mind and intellect are two major attributes of the brain. The mind desires, intellect judges.
If u you show me your mind, i will tame it!

Desire and Apathy

Arun -"Remember that no one will understand you in life perfectly...just give credit to those who have tried to do it".
Me -The true credit to who who have tried to understand is for their perseverance, despite knowledge of one's aberrations. for their belief that even an imperfect life can be perfectly real.
Arun -Life seems imperfect only in as much as we make it to be...The blame lies on desires (again that six letter word!)
Me -My primary desire is to be able to desire. To want something. To feel the need to do something. Is the lack of desire the perfect imperfection? Or, is there a gap in understanding!
Arun -From what I understand, desirelessness is a state of mind which can have either a positive or negative predecessor. One state is that of a guy who has won over his desires after having realised its futility. The second situation arises out of utter apathy. I think that's where you are.
Me -Apathy has for long now been my understanding of my state of existence. Psychology helps explain why, to a great extent. The only problem is that knowing, doesn't really change What Is. It enables the acceptance that its just this. While also lending weight to Darwin and genetics.
Just good intentions are never enough. To be requires, a latent capacity.
Arun -A person shows what he is by what he does with what he has. You have the knowledge of your state of mind plus good intentions. Should be trigger enough.
Me -A lack of feeling and interest are best not shown. Good intentions imply that such apathy is not inflicted on others. And that's partly how this state of existence was triggered!

Distance

Occupation begets preoccupations and, distractions. The mind space is able to pay attention only to whats in the frame of reference.
Whats off the radar....Ah well....Those are just good intentions!!

Relationship

Raman -To create a relation is as simple as to writer SAND on SAND, while to maintain a relation is a difficult as to write WATER with WATER, on WATER.
Me -The intent of leaving an impression is usually the start point of relationships. Its easier when the others nature is receptive and one's intent, well guided.
The vagaries of nature make for changing circumstances. The impressionable are now more fluid by nature. Intent too, keeps slipping through the fingers.
So the key to relationships is adapting to nature.

Desire

Raman -Do not loose what you have by desiring what you don't have; Because what you have now, is on of the many things you once desired.
Me -You can't loose what you don't have. What you don't have now are, just those things that you did not know were desirable.