A smile in a moment

In the stillness of a moment,
Cloaked in the fatigue of a fulfilled day,
Thoughts of other moments of togetherness
flit into this blissful domain.
And a fond smile reverberates.

Perception

Perception usually mirrors ones own world view of things, oft biased by the baggage from ones life.
It's difficult then to comprehend a baseless, no strings relationship between friends.


True. Friendship is a chemical bonding....unconditioned by the facts of life. Indeed many do not understand what causes this bond.


I get the feeling that you are in that group too....
If you feel the need to understand....Then you never will!

The duality of Awareness

Me - Duality is what provides the majority with a raison d'etre. The focus is on running the maze. The stimuli and response geared to creating ability to run another day.
Most who do find an exit only find themselves at the start of a labyrinth. And are oft resigned to do more of the same, albeit differently.
Of those who seek meaning, most just let themselves be herded through the maze on the survival prerogatives and responses of fellow travelers. With the mind, minding minds that mind the concept of the Mind. Seeing it as just an escape from the realisation that....It's Only This. And the seeker gradually realises that duality is the raison d'etre of the habitat.
Container and Contained in synergy!
The little steps of the mind that prepare one for the Mind, only serve to remind the mind that transiency, though understood, can be a permanent millstone. If you aren't aware of the Buddha, you are in a void. For those who need to kill the Buddha, to make the great leap forward, it is never about choice.
A curse and a boon - the duality of Awareness.
Aum.

A teaching cannot be regarded as complete unless it gives the practical method of reaching the ultimate goal.

....From the Foreword to a Zen text I've started reading

Reflection....on the road to Realisation

Me - The face.... A mirror of one's times.
Lines etched, reflecting worldly burdens....forever unrealised.
The Mind is on hold.
Borderline realisation taking it's toll.
And the visage...
A seeming mask,
spelling Apathy!
No salvation on the road to realisation.
Just an understanding that
Just understanding just ain't enough
To Be..
Take a look in the mirror and you'll see

Goodbyes

Goodbyes are just moments in time that are etched as milestones for recall. Painfully immediate yet joyously sweet to fall back on.
Missed out dint you! Ah well.....Life's swell!

What will be...will be

Me - I Am the environment I create. I Am the Environment I choose to dwell in. Just like all of life thus far. Iy will be when it is meant to be. So you just do what you gotta do. Simple!

Shitology

Arun - In DEEP SHIT. You wont find us in high spirits. Looking to you for moral support.
Me - All I've got is the philosophies on life I live by. SHIT happens. You have the choice of directing all your senses to reminding you of it's qualitative nature OR... Just grin and bear it, using the discomfort to focus on the pleasure of a good bath. Time always heals if you try not to be a Usain Bolt with it. When the going gets tough, the tough get going!

Monogamous infidelity

Monogamy in relationships is a deeply ingrained value. Though it has evolved beyond the strict confines of matrimonial fidelity,the expectancy is still of monogamous infidelity!

Free your mind

Mindscape: You don't turn me on.
Feelscape: Stop!! I'll get turned on....
Escape: When the Mind unshackles c0onstraints it now feels are no longer binding.
Free Your Mind.....

One morning in June

One morning, one morning,
One morning in June.
I watched a young gardener,
plying his wares.
Potted plants and creepers,
a few flowers here and there.
On a terrace where hope,
Oft withered to despair.

One morning, one morning,
one morning in June....
The buds they are planted
Maybe they'll bloom.
Or like the evergreens,
stand silently mute.
testimony to Nature,
unflinchingly resolute.

One morning, one morning,
One morning in June.
My thoughts wandered
on the wings of a view.
Chasing the words....
Following a tune....

Realising the lessons from failure

Me - Achievement is the Realisation of What you wanna be.
Realising What it takes, i.e. the necessary steps in the process to get there. Honestly assessing ones abilities and capabilities and realising your own strengths and weaknesses. And understanding what is required of you to optimise them, so you can make the most of the opportunities that lead you to who you wanna be while, keeping you aware of the threats to your goal.
Introspect to this as an online thot framework is the best lesson that failure delivers, if one chooses to learn it. This Realisation helps the development of a realistic and achievable world view, which does not have to resort to self pity and extraneous circumstances as the basis for understanding ones situation.

Reality check

You told me that you are very comfortable with who you are. That you were clear about your goals and how to get there. The Result is a reality check to see if re-evaluation is needed.
Always helps to tangibly address the WHY and How of Ehat you wanna be doing. Identify what is achievable and, the stuff thats in the wish frame. As you must now realise....just good intentions and a load of effort are not enough.
Factor in learning about your assessment of your input and the output reality it translated to. Apply that to your goals.
List What, Why, How and WHEN, to draw a road map. It begins and ends with you. And all the processes and people in between will be guided by your perceptions of the realities you choose to create.
So...make informed choices.

A man as an island

Me - All thats required for equanimity is the ability to let a moment happen to you and see your intent and actions guide the constituents of the moment to harmony for self... A man as an island. Battered now and then at the shores but, at peace at the core.
No wonder the "marooned on a desert island" fantasy is so appealing to all those pursuing a purpose in life!

Man can be an island

Good or bad is a value judgement. Subjective. Just like morality, of which good and bad is a much debated opinion rule.
I do believe that a man can be an island.....


You certainly enjoy a rare state of mind. Good or bad...immaterial I guess.


If you wanna be dressed in mourning...
Should I.
If you dont shed tears for fears...
Can I.
If you feel as you think...
No thought to paradigm shifts,
And altered perspectives...
May I!

Abstinence

A crude and stupid question I know, but the answer would plug a knowledge gap. So here goes:
In the mating game, the male is wired up with a near involuntary reflex that signals that the mate is on the radar, so go for it. Do the female of the species have something similar, as a sign of attraction. One reads about wetness but??? Sentiment, morality and values and, better control oft mask the fallout of basic instincts and serve to perpetuate my ignorance. Any chance of getting an education from you on this issue!

I guess you couldn't lay her lol. Well there's more to women than primal instincts.... Do the words like love, commitment, companionship ring a bell??

How perceptive!! And I thought the phraseology Of my message accounted for those facets in seeking knowledge if the physiological equivalent of priapism existed in women!

Well buddy! Wake up to reality.

Thats what I'm trying to do through garnering some objective, first hand knowledge.... Well trying to induce sharing of the same at least!

Morningside.....
A bit of me died
And filled a void that want begat.
And though I'm free
A tad sorrier and wiser.
For the life of me I can't understand,
How abstinence seems to come so easy!

Look at it as a new beginning, better late than never.
Never too late to be sensitised and be sensitive.....How about that???

And just how would all that sensitivity make my world a better place? We are not talking about the ability to forge new relationships. No interest there. Its about the evolution of the existing ones. They all seem to acquire a plateau or mesa like quality. Flatten out too soon. The lessons from life are learnt differently in the building of our comfort zones. Most peak n plateau easily, anchored in their world views. Facades erected as a surcival framework. Some still roam and climb on their own terms. Indulging impulse!

Her I am on this July morning,
Wonderin bout feelings and
all this heart and mind stuff.
The sights and sounds of a new day dawning
raise hope for
whats still left undone.

Thank you love. Wonder whats still undone? May I be of some help. Luuuuuv u and bless u.

For me to know and for you to see and know if you feel like the experience. If you do....then you can help.

Relationships

You have you perspective to us. Heres mine:
A relationship between the sexes always has shades of the mating game.The process of becoming friends and getting to know each otheris usually laced with an undercurrent of sexual desire. The culmination of the process of the mating game.The final demonstration of the mutuality of wavelength and trust. The couple then KNOWS each other, in the biblical sense of the term! If that does not fructify, the relationship loses a certain intensity as all the flirtation dies!

Philandering ....or so thot to be..

The vehemence of your reaction to a plain acknowledgment of a reality, that can suit a commitment phobic guy like me, frankly amazed me. To be aware of a degree of freedom does not necessarily imply exercise of thos freedoms 24x7. The 'bull in the china shop' days are over. Even mania highs are nice and manageable, within oneself.
What pained though was the underlying presumption that I was walking that road. I thought you knew me better than that. I've handled 3 and a half years of celibacy pretty well!

The Pains of Trust

Arun - What is More Painful ??
When a person whom you trusted hurts you,
OR
The person whom you hurt still trusts you!
Think about it!
Me - What is pain ? The undigested effluvium of ones expectations by ones intellect. The more senses one invests in a subject or object, the larger the potential for emotional bullshit.
If you trust somebody, you invest a host of senses totally. Hence in breach, its a swing to the other end of the pendulum.
I wouldn't hurt someone I cared for, consciously. So bearing with the pain of forgiveness is much easier seeing that one can always make it up.
In the former case its difficult to make up to yourself....Then again, it teaches you not to expect.


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Me - Trust is basically taking many givens for granted. Situation and environment independent. Thyself gives as to myself. Even in a crunch, placing thy expectations before mine as thye given! The Trust deficit arises when I comes before you. The pain comes when others do unto you what you wouldn't do unto them. A lapse in your judgement.
When others continue to do unto you despite what you did to them, the residual that you live with is more shame that brings on a faux pain when it keeps reminding you of your pettiness. And you will always sheepishly overcompensate.

Learning

If you see your dreams as demons, then the Whys will keep chasing you. A restless and tormented mindset both shapes and, is shaped by that perspective to the Whys. The conditioning of the mind by the supposed lessons from one's experience - the basis of your value framework and desires - keeps ones perspective subjective and biased. What you see is very quickly projected as what you presume will be OR, the wish frame of what should be, based on the wants and desires in your perspectives, your current world view. That constitutes the Mind. What you have to shut down so that you can really feel and use the base intellect framework, that relies on ones basic instincts, to seek answers for the Whys. Thats learning!

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What you know is based on the facts and perceptions garnered from ones experiences in life.
Feeling is the here and now sensory experience provided by ones instincts in response to ones environment.
Instincts - The inherent antennae that are focused on one survival and comfort in an environment. These basic instincts look out for you and action guided by them gives maximum joy.
The Mind operates with inputs from one's knowledge framework and often overrides the input from the feeling frame. The belief is that if you dont learn from the lessons of history, then one is condemned to relive history again.
One forgets that change is the only constant in life and the circumstances of one's history are not likely to be replicated thanks to the learning we garner. Which also embeds itself in the antennae framework of instinct. It is that learning which actsas a firewall to instinctive action. Mind overriding Feeling!
All this is a conscious attempt to open a window in your mind that facilitates the experience of feeling without the screening influence of thought. Revisiting the ISABS event!

.Whats going on!!

51 years and my life is still,
trying to get u that great big hill of Hope...
for a destination.
There are times when I lie in bed,
trying to get it all out,
whats in my head,
And I... I feel a little peculiar.
So I wake in the morning
and I step outside.
I take a deep breath
and I get realhigh
And I scream from the top of my lungs...
WHATS GOING ON!

And I tied. O my God did I try.
I tried all the time..
in these institutions.
And I hope
O my God do I Hope..
I Hope for change...
For Revolution.
As I say..
Hey, hey, hey..
WHATS GOING ON!!

A July afternoon

There she was on a July afternoon,
looking for luv.
She's been looking for it in the strangest places,
hardly a stone that she's left unturned.
Must have tried umpteen faces.
Not one was aware of the fire that burned...
In her heart...
In her mind..
In her soul....

And with the new day comes salvation...
The mind freeing the heart and soul to roam!

Ratting

Others opinions of you don't really matter. Yet theres a niggling curiosity, off and on, to know. The need to be well thought of, get approval for one's actions. Insecurity or vanity?
Stemming from a need to belong. And yet, we crave individuality as a strength!
It doesn't rally matter who wins in the rat race. In the end you are still a rat.
So be. Don't try to be!

Time

Time is a timeless commodity.....depending on how you treat the moments. If you attempt to control em..., activity and its attendant exhaustion, see it in deficit.
If you don't know what to do with em, time seems to suffocate you. Yet, if you just let life happen to you one just loses conception of time as a measure! Its a companion, one who moves with you, never becoming or raising an issue.

The Time of one's life...

Time is a timeless commodity.....depending on how you treat the moments. If you attempt to control em..., activity and its attendant exhaustion, see it in deficit.
If you don't know what to do with em, time seems to suffocate you. Yet, if you just let life happen to you, each moment is timeless. You just slip into em,with the flow. beginnings and ends crafted by impulse.
Consequences - just more moments in theflow of life. No issues. After all, time always heals.
So one can either have the yime of one's life OR... let it have you!!


Too heavy for my tiny brain. Give a missed call when you can talk...


Just be. Don't try to be- in simple terms I gyess its a csae for that. Call anytime. No issues.

Orgasmic fitness

If you wanna stay fit and healthy, have ORGASMS every day!

Oatmeal
Red wine
Greens
Antioxidants
Salads
Milk
Sugar free

WHAT YOU THOT IT MEANT...ALSO WORKS!

Is that your secret?


It can't be a secret if I'm sharingit with you! Its up to you now to keep it as your secret or... start leading an alternate healthy life!

Touch n Feel

Temptation
Often
Unleashes
Cherished
Hopes

Fears
Eventually
Eradicate
Libido

Shed FEELing and indulge in TOUCH!

small world?

I know that its a small world. The problem i that we're always taking the long and winding roads that never sem to get us to where we wanna be! So.. distance does matter.

A Zippo moment

Every time I light a cig,
a thot of you sneaks in quick.
The Zippo cradled in my palm,
The callous on my thumb from flicking the flint
till I get a light.
Frustration and Patience.
Perseverance and petulance,
Fondness and memories and...
A touch so soothing that,
One just lives wiyh the lack of sparking.
Thats my first Zippo and,
it does all of that!