There is this recurring angst like feeling.Why is there no thought. Despite inputs from sight, sounds, touch, feel, one just stares blankly. None of the sensory triggers activate a memory. There's just this blankness of mind. And its all pervasive...all day. Even on my walks, its zombie like motion. Then one becomes aware of the state and a process of introspective questioning starts. Why? What?....
Over the past six months I've come up with a hypothesis. Since there is hardly any memory, none is triggered. There is only forced recall that comes up as snapshots. No emotions attached. Huge gaps in a life lived, yet seemingly unknown. Since memory is so shallow, there's no connectivity to present day exp;erience. Hence no base for social conversations.
The basic issue is the lack of an emotional framework. I'm just a zombie like shell with no imagination as a result.
Thought seems to be on a single track. Often wondered how thoughts germinate. How people flit from one thought to another.....
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