The last guy you'd think wud come calling.........

Hiya Ketan.
Been a dream run from those pessimistic broods on the steps of 5B/2/9 to the uplifting rubbing of shoulders withe the country's hottest stars. Yeah man, the times they really kept a changing. Wuz gr8 to hear bout your goings on (tho frankly. the end product sucks big time. More on that some other time).
Just like info filters down 2 me the same I guess applies vis-a-vis updates on me, to you. Sad we just drifted off the mail call in early 2005. No particular reason, just wasn't much optimism in life 2 get one to progress in expression, beyond inquiries about health, the weather and the ubiquitious Howz life!! Hate that so one just logs off. Easy posture when ones never had any purpose to life. Remember just letting life happen to u.
So why did the marriage collapse. My mindset, general apathy to life and of course my understanding of morality, all fueled by whisper campaigns by the organisational Biharis. We were at each others throats, very publicly unfortunately in front of Sadhika. In Nov 06 I decided that shes better off with one parent more so in her Board year. We talked about it all 3 of us. Agreed that it was the best way forward, though the Biharis screwed up that understanding 2 later with more fuel, even after I'd put my papers in. So now it was me quitting on them 2 get married again. Christ! why don't women understand that once is more than enough.
And so stepped out from one state of existence into what I felt was freedom, without much of a clue as 2 what I'd do with the rest of my life. 10 months down the line, Ive stopped searching okay with just existing again, but peaceably. Exorcised most of my demons. Just needed an acceptance of who u are and what one is capable of. Since it was zilch on both fronts, Nirvana. I could hang around doing nothing and not feel bad about it. Am Not screwing anybody's happiness. Since I have never really known happiness as a real sensory reaction, there's not much chance that I'll screw mine. Yeah its pretty hard on my folks. Then I rationalise it by thinking that I didn't ask to be brought into this world, so that's a cross that they'll have to carry. Helps to be an emotionally cold bastard. All that faux feeling business gets sorted out fast.
So how did u pop up in my line of sight. Well I was going down memory lane on my mail box. And Boom there was u with the Mcann and Rediff ids. And there was recent info of u floating around the very desirable Deepika and that's how u got this long story. Couldn't I have done this earlier? Probably cud but I'm a huge reactive guy. Need triggers. Outta sight is never outta mind just hanging out in the subconscious.
After all of that I hope u still do operate this acount. Even if you don't it always gr8 fun chatting with u and this been one such chat and that's how I look at it.So you continue to kick-ass more so since you've got some really delectable butt in your periphery.

Ciao.