Reality biting.

Peace of mind comes from acceptance of realities first, then finding ways to cope with them.
The past is history and most reflections on it tend only favor self pity. Why me?
There is no choice but to cope with what is, the here and now. Only issue is How.
Some realities:
A family environment is not likely to happen. We three each are and will be on our own. That's the first reality. No point hoping for companionship there. The extended family too can at best provide short spells of company, comfortably. So in terms of having family around you on a regular basis, whatever the location, the chances are slim. The reality then is that you are likely to be alone and family is not going to provide a solution to change that.
So you have to think of other ways to overcome the need to not be staying alone.
Accepting that, prioritise your other needs. And the realities linked to them. Aim for the achievable. Try and forget about the rest, unless you can do something to change that reality. Its about what can be and not what should be or could be.
So this is how it turned out. What are you gonna do about it. Crying in helpless frustration or, cursing your situation and those responsible for it or just leaving it to fate, don't alter the reality. They help pass time but if you wanna different future for yourself then, you have to define it, keeping the existing realities in mind and then do what you are able to do to make it happen. Beyond that keep reviewing and course correcting it.