Me -Jha's b'day today. Got a very flat response to a birthday greet.Asked why, he says I'm in Delhi. Uncharacteristically officious on the line. See if he's having a happy b'day.
Arun -Short But Means a Lot:
"The minute you think of giving up any relation, think of all the reasons why you held it for so long"...Good morning.
Me -Its not about giving up but, unobtrusively, being there. The absence of presence makes for fewer additions and give aways in the here and now. Just being...not trying to become....Familiar!
Arun -If you can last two months there, you can last a lifetime. Try it, theres no point living the life of a recluse anyway.
Me - Acceptance, Understanding, consensus,appreciation, mutuality of perspective, approval - some of the triggers that determine the longevity of relationships. These are the basis that one hopes for in a blood relationship. Trying to achieve them is a felyt need. Takes two to tango though. And a couple of months to learn tyhe steps and see if we are comfy dancing together. Thats all one is trying.
The marriage is beyond salvage.My daughter, dunno? If one succeeds, ones presence in absence will be felt with warmth. If not. one was absent anyway.
Knowledge that will make life on my island easier. You may not see much point in a reclusive life. But is there a point to anything! Just as the only answer is that there never will be an answer. Its about not letting questions surface that disrupt equanimity. And livin like a recluse helps create a comfy cocoon of manageable boundaries, sans intrusions. Life is on ones own terms. What you see is what you get. Take it or leave it. The realisation and acceptance of ones ordinariness is a sound basis for islanding. It keeps one off the paths that lend to pursuit of ideal or optimal states and the chimera of perfection.
Nothing really matters. Its each moment at a time.
All eej well.
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